Meditando y un poco mas............

Mi mente me esta dando y dando vueltas y finalmente decide poner en escrito estos pensamientos que me estan agoviando. Es un momento personal y un poco dificil. No se si es tristesa, la nueva cultura, nueva lengua, o si es solo falta de sueno. Llevo unos dias que me siento muy sentimental. Me encanta mi nuevo pais pero... siempre ay un pero..Eh llegado a pensar que si en verdad soy una persona feliz. Si estoy en los Estado Unidos estoy descontenda y ahora estoy aqui, en casa, con mi nina, sin estres porque no trabajo, vivo cerca del mar, y aun me siento triste. Porque esta naturaleza humana... quizas nunca voy a ser feliz? Que me hace falta? Voy a meditar y hacer una oracion porque me siento perdida en mis miles pensamientos.

Update: After some more thinking, I thought if posting this was appropriate so I took it down, I mean who wants to read about my low points. you might say kind of personal. But this blog was initially for that purpose, to post of my daily struggles (ie: new culture, new discoveries, my ups and downs). Then I received a wonderful message from my new friend Mihaela and she offered words of encouragement that I had to be truthful with who I am.


..Just when I was trying to send you a cheer message to your last post (the meditation...), it disappeared!Even if I don't know spanish, I understood something of your feelings.In a nutshell due to this wonderful Internet, people that are alike can meet each other no mather the place where they live.Keep your cheen up!We speak different languages, we live in different places, but we, the good people, are in being!Keep going! The invisible strings of good thoughts are working!I hope that my-not-so-good-english didn't block the meaning of my message. .Mihaela